All that He Gave...

"Yet it was our weaknesses He carried; it was our sorrows that weighed Him down....He was pierced for our rebellion, crushed for our sins. He was beaten so we could be whole. He was whipped so we could be healed. All of us, like sheep, have gone astray....No one cared that He died without descendants, that His life was cut short in midstream. But He was struck down....When He sees all that is accomplished by His anguish, He will be satisfied.....And because of His experience, my righteous servant will make it possible for many to be counted righteous, for He will bear all their sins. I will give Him the honors of a victorious soldier, because He exposed himself to death." Isaiah 53:4-12 NLT...& this is why I Love Him so :-) ♥...Hope everyone Has a wonderful Weekend Celebrating The Resurrection of Christ, without Him I personally could endure nothing!

God Can and He WILL...

Metaphorically & literally..I've felt the sting of when you’re knocked to your knees on a course surface & your trying to muster up the strength to rise back up thru the burn from having wounded them only to be knocked back down on to them again. You have two choices at that point, either get back up or stay down. I might have taken a few too many minutes to shake of the sting & pull up off that first downed knee, here and there, but they both ready to be used. Ready to rise up, and keep it moving..God equips us regardless of the equipment, if we let Him! Phil. 4:13-20 For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength… And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus. Now all glory to God our Father forever and ever! Amen.

This School Year in Review

What a difference a year makes. I can't believe it's already April. Very thankful my youngest was brought home.(Disclaimer: I believe every kids is different & that public education offers many wonderful Educators)...However for my family, this year offered so much for my once shy, isolated baby,who was often the subject of bullying. Though she still feels comfortable playing by herself...she's learned to feel free anytime of day to resort to prayer thru any trial big or small, made great friendships, learned her talents, excelled in her weaker subjects, fallen in love with reading, and participated in an awesome cooperative learning group with some beautiful children. What a gifted time this year was, thanking God for how much she's grown. :) “Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10

Wow, it's been six months since my hole closure and I can't believe I just hadn't had a chance to update. I am praising God my heart responded very well to closure and is healing quite nicely with the patch in place. Thankfully, I have not experienced any further TIA or speech issues, however, surgery did not cure my migraines as so many people eluded to. I still suffer from the disease of migraine, in fact right after surgery they thought I was having another TIA when they began to realize after running several test I am having a new symptom with my migraines that involved the eyes. I tried to explain that as it was nothing like the experiences when the two Hypertensive crisis lead to TIA symptoms. They mistakenly thought my many visual disturbances right after surgery was a possible blood clot. That has seemed to pass, however, I will occasionally have some dizziness when having the head pain. All in all, I do not regret the decision I made to have the procedure done. It was never intended to cure my head issues, but rather guard my heart and brain against my BP issues. So I am thankful. I have also been making a lot of changes in my life choices, since wrapping up the Holidays. I love to cook and I love to entertain, but everything in moderation. I found myself slipping out of my preventative habits and my BP slowly creeping back towards crisis standards and so now I am back to my life savers...with my truest life saver, God, helping me of course. The last several week, I've been exercising 5 days a week, at least a half hour , day or night, whenever the chronic pain allows...sometimes even when it doesn't want to allow. I try to fight thru it, because I am the only me I have and this me wants to be here for my precious Jules.It seems small, but adjusting my eating is never that hard, yet it's never enough. Unfortunately, genetics are working against me and so I have to do all I can to stay well. Anyhoo, enough about me. I hope you are each well, and if you are not please know there is a Hope and a love that quenches all pain. God truly loves us. I may not know you, but I pray as you read this you may know you are not a lone. My life's not perfect, but it's blessed. Envisioning Heaven and my Life there often helps me Keep my head up when many people wonder why it's not down. I wrote this song & hope it encourages some of you: 'Heaven's Gate' by:Natasha Jules I sang at the Feet of the King He told me, "My child I love you!" I started to understand all of the things that I been thru. Like every time I laughed, His Spirit was teaching me Joy. And every time I cried I was empowered to Fight the ploy. ...Nothing the world could have offered could ever replace this day. I looked all around for Jesus, He's the reason I'm able to stay. I went to throw my arms around Him, I asked Him was that okay. He said, "Tasha don't be silly, I've been holding you Every day." Then I dropped to my Knees towards my Father again , I thanked Him for all that He gave. I told Him my heart felt such Love here, From all of His power displayed. I never EVER could have imagined, All of that would be worth all of THIS. I'm happy He helped me to Hold on and now I am in truest bliss.

God is So Near

The best part of waking up is having Jesus FILL my cup!...13 Jesus answered her, “Everyone who drinks this water will become thirsty again. 14 But those who drink the water that I will give them will never become thirsty again. In fact, the water I will give them will become in them a spring that gushes up to eternal life.”15 The woman told Jesus, “Sir, give me this water! Then I won’t get thirsty ..." John 4:13-15..Mornin...Wow, there is so much going on Post surgery, I hope when I have more time , if the Lord wills it, I can get a chance to share that part of my journey with you. BUT for now more importantly I'd like to post God's word as encouragement. This particular scripture I took from the GWT translation and I thoroughly feel God when He is speaking to me thru it. Stay strong friends, remember God is able!... Psalm 34 GOD’S WORD Translation (GW) [a]By David when he pretended to be insane in the presence of Abimelech; Abimelech threw him out, so David left. 34 I will thank the Lord at all times. My mouth will always praise him. 2 My soul will boast about the Lord. Those who are oppressed will hear it and rejoice. 3 Praise the Lord’s greatness with me. Let us highly honor his name together. 4 I went to the Lord for help. He answered me and rescued me from all my fears. 5 All who look to him will be radiant.[b] Their faces will never be covered with shame. 6 Here is a poor man who called out. The Lord heard him and saved him from all his troubles. 7 The Messenger of the Lord camps around those who fear him, and he rescues them. 8 Taste and see that the Lord is good. Blessed is the person who takes refuge in him. 9 Fear the Lord, you holy people who belong to him. Those who fear him are never in need. 10 Young lions go hungry and may starve, but those who seek the Lord’s help have all the good things they need. 11 Come, children, listen to me. I will teach you the fear of the Lord. 12 Which of you wants a full life? Who would like to live long enough to enjoy good things? 13 Keep your tongue from saying evil things and your lips from speaking deceitful things. 14 Turn away from evil, and do good. Seek peace, and pursue it! 15 The Lord’s eyes are on righteous people. His ears hear their cry for help. 16 The Lord confronts those who do evil in order to wipe out all memory of them from the earth. 17 Righteous people cry out. The Lord hears and rescues them from all their troubles. 18 The Lord is near to those whose hearts are humble. He saves those whose spirits are crushed. 19 The righteous person has many troubles, but the Lord rescues him from all of them. 20 The Lord guards all of his bones. Not one of them is broken. 21 Evil will kill wicked people, and those who hate righteous people will be condemned. 22 The Lord protects the souls of his servants. All who take refuge in him will never be condemned.

Because He lives...

After 2 TIA's & 2 hypertensive crisises during this last 17 months, I finally under went a PFO closure of the heart this past Monday. Feeling stronger each day. I thank the God of all comfort for carrying me thru these trials. I'd also wanted to give a quick shout thanking loved ones for the tremendous support and prayers. It's been felt. My family saw a rainbow after yesterday's storm, a true reflection of the blessings we feel God has bestowed on us. Our Joy and hope no matter the Life event is in Him. Love to all. John14:19...Because I live, you also will live.

In His Hands

SO here I am almost two years after my PFO diagnosis, TIA, and two hypertensive crisises...finally ready to move away from aspirin therapy as a treatment and onto Hole Closure. I literally ran away from this,but what I didn't realize was that I was running away from a peaceful trust in My Father...who is the Great Physician. I wasn't in fear of Death...well, we all get anxious at the thought of it, but what I mean is Chronic pain can leave you longing for that Mansion Christ promises built for you by the Wonderful Mansion Builder and so I thought about it from time to time.....HOwever those Precious Jules of mine would just leave me tugging at my heart string...I started to have such an unhealthy anxiety stir inside me that I shut down and ran full speed away from the thought of doing anything that might take me from them. I couldn't imagine them dealing with anything going wrong from it, or not being able to comfort my little one even though it is a pretty straight forward procedure. What I was forgetting is my little ones Know the Greatest comforter of all and this is training grown for them learning their own trust in Him. So today I went for my pre surgical prods and pokes and if it is Lord will I will be going in to close the hole Monday...I think my biggest fear is that I wouldn't, like so many others I know with this condition, receive the side benefit of gaining relief from the last 12 years of suffering with debilitating migraines as the add bonus. And I felt like I'd be too sad to go thru all of this and they weren't gone away with all the problems too. However, what I am realizing now is whether that too is part of God's plan for me or not...everything that I endure is Fueled by His power and nothing I suffer thru is in vain. I love my Father in Heaven I pray I can put on my brave girl cap now and hold His hand thru each step....Understanding or lack there of can lead to way too much thinking..way to much reaching for and tugging at that which we cannot control...The God of Heaven touched me today with His peace like only He can.... so thankful it rises up above and beyond my mental limitations, thwarting my human understanding, Guarding me from all things....even when that includes my emotions or the anxiety of my mind. God is able... Philipians 4:Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. 8Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.