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Hi there,

Welcome to my blog. My hope is that a look into someone else's home might be able to encourage you not to feel so lonely inside your own. We are all connected. We would be even more connected if we thought outside the physical realm and allowed ourselves to be healed spiritually. That’s where you’ll find the true strength to carry on! Here is a link on how to do that: http://www.licoc.org/Gospel/Gospel.htm

Thursday, August 12, 2010

I Won't Apologize for my Joy by:Given Precious Jules

I'd like to share one of my poems I wrote a while back. In light of me coming to a point in my walk in Christ where I am truly understanding the deeper meaning of these poetic lines, I was able to reflect on it again. Perhaps you can too. Before I do that I'd like to give a little background about my nature. I am the type of person who even if you are treating me poorly, if you ask me to walk a mile with you I will ask you if you'd like me to carry you on my back for most of the way. I am deeply loyal, but I am recognizing more and more that doesn't mean I have to be a doormat for others. Don't get me wrong I will always pray I may be useful to My Lord through any and every form of humility that he allows me to experience while in flesh however, that doesn't mean I have to let your negativity change my joy. I don't have to allow someone else's journey bring down mine. Sometimes people are going to try to crowd out God's light. They might be full of anger, rage, darkness, negativity, frustration and bitterness in their hearts. And so you have to decide at some point if they aren't letting me help, if they don't want my help, if they think they'd do better without my help to just leave them be. Not stop loving them, not stop praying for them, but accept that they have to give it to God just the same way you do. Without God I'd be a wreck and so I wont apologize to anyone for seeing the optimism in blindly trusting Him along the way...

I Won't Apologize for my Joy by:Given Precious Jules

I won't apologize for my sunshine if it somehow bothers you.
Make excuse for my joy, For He rises above the blue.
The way His love for me burns so bright that His lightOver powers the pain
...So strong and filled with hope that it blocks out all the rain.
His joy is blinding, REMINDING (me)...Of all He has to give
and I praise Him for the day He gave me light to live.
Why would I stay sad? Why would I get mad? Why would I behave as if the SON doesn't shine?
If that is what you need to do then go ahead, but let me rejoice in mine.
You might look at me and think, "Why is she so Happy with so much going wrong???
It's because He shines on me, giving my heart it's joyful song.
I won't apologize for my sunshine if it somehow bothers you.
Make excuse for my joy, For He rises above the blue.
He strengthens me more than any other source could.
He let His son die for me when nobody else ever would.
I sing to Him because He beams from deep inside.
I have peace in Him, a kind I just refuse to hide.
Times get hard, but he pushes past the dark clouds that try to creep in.
Shouting, "Hold strong my child trust in me and together we'll win!"
Taking hold of me even when my heart seems gray.
He delivers me, swooping down he saves the day.
So... I won't apologize for my sunshine if it somehow bothers you.
Make excuse for my joy, ...For He rises above the blue


"I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God for the salvation of everyone who believes: first for the Jew, then for the Gentile."- Romans 1:16

Monday, July 12, 2010

Just thinkin out loud...

Just sitting here havin one of my word pic moments, thought I'd share out loud...perserverance is not just haning in there, but knowing there is something better...

I have this vision bouncing around in my head whenever I am feeling run down. By God's grace it helps encourage me to trust a little more...A train commuter is worried about one thing getting home from work. They don’t fixate on the fact that they’re packed in like sardines, uncomfortable, or even tired. No,they endure it all & prepare. Pushing out the difficulties of the world they fix their minds on the goodness of Home & envision themselves there. Those in Christ... must NEVER loose sight that we haven’t arrived at our final destination. Heaven is worth the commute.


Isaiah 58:13-14…and if you honor it by not going your own way and not doing as you please or speaking idle words, 14 then you will find your joy in the LORD, and I will cause you to ride on the heights of the land and to feast on the inheritance of your father Jacob.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

He's made me bold with strength in my soul...

Hi Everyone,

Wow, this has been way too long. I miss catching up with other souls who blog and others who journal their lives. Yay to Summer!!!! I’ve been waiting for quite some time for June to come and officially kick of the fun. I still battle with my health during this time however, having extra time with the Hubby and children as a family unit seems to add a kick to empowering me. I could never express in worded form what that does for me. So Lord willing can’t wait to start some family fun. Anyhoo, there's much that has been going on and God has been showing me amazing things.

I am happy to report the children and I have survived their first year in public education. Having home schooled them for four years it was a challenge to the mind and to my flesh to partake on this journey. As a matter of fact sadly God had to pull me kicking and screaming for a lot of the way, but like a good parent He waited for me to abort “Tantrum” mode and do what I was told. To learn to trust He knew what was best for me.

It’s not that Hubby and I were against education outside of the home; our Faith stands outside of the boundaries of educational walls and we continue to try our best to train the children to Love and fear the Lord, but it was more so the fact that my health struggles prevented me from continuing with our goal in this particular area that frustrated me.

I was disappointed that my body wasn’t cooperating with my often-busy mind. See God has gifted me with a very high thresh hole for pain and so when I could no longer perform the task of teaching my children from home a part of me felt defeated and something felt dead inside…. No violins here though, that’s just plain old ugly pride and I am glad the Father is showing me to rely on His power alone. In looking at the last nine months it was difficult but completely transforming. I feel that much closer to Him for it.

So what’s my point, why today’s rambles??? I guess because if your like me your human, and sooner or later something will come a long big or small that will not allow you to rely on yourself fully. Embrace the moment!!! It can draw you closer to God. Let yourself be yoked with Him, it’s so worth it. I am not perfected in this by any means; I just know how satisfying it’s been to know who has me. Matt. 11: 28 Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, & I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you & learn from me,...you will find rest for your souls.**The word yoke is believed to be derived from P.I.E. Yugam"(yoke),verb "Yeug"(join unite) It's a wooden beam which is used between a pair of oxen to allow them to pull a load (wikipedia defintion). They don’t turn or shift w/o eachother, they work together. Let yourself be yoked with Him…It might ache a little, but it's always good to be brought a little lower so He can raise a little Higher in your day!!! “Pride is insolence, and belief in human power is impiety. True strength lies in submission which permits one to dedicate his life, through devotion, to a power beyond himself.

Psalm 138:3 NKJV.."In the day when I cried out, You answered me,And made me bold with strength in my soul." Psalm 32:6 NIV "Therefore let everyone who is godly pray to you,while you may be found; surely when the mighty waters rise, they will not reach him."

Monday, November 23, 2009

Exposing the Underbelly

Exposing The Underbelly

1 Peter 5:6 Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time.

Now as simplistic as it may sound I sometimes grasp Spiritual concepts deeper through the use of word pictures. The moment I read this passage I envisioned us lowering ourselves before God much like a dog does to it’s Master’s hand. Images like this make me do a little research on what I’m picturing mentally. In doing so I found some interesting things to reflect on.

I learned that when dogs are born their Mother’s constantly turn them over to clean and care for them because they cannot take care of themselves. Much like us, this is not met without some resistance. However, because the Mother is bigger and stronger eventually the puppy learns to submit to her authority and decides to roll over. They begin to understand that she is essentially their Master and that she is looking out for them, regardless of what they may think or want at the time. At some point they get the connection that she is there to help them.

As dogs grow and mature most begin to apply these same principles when showing submission to their Human Masters. That’s why you’ll see a dog roll on its side or on it’s back when they see a human loved one approaching. Now they could very well turn and bite the hand that feeds them, but this would be out of fear. This kind of behavior would be out of a need to remain in control but instead the majority of dogs will relinquish all their power. Despite not knowing in advance what that person might or might not do for them, they will choose to submit themselves based on the knowledge that this is who pledges to care for them. They will expose the most vulnerable, the weakest part of their being, the under belly, all in an effort to show they have placed full trust in them.

Shouldn’t we do the same? ‘Humble yourself under God’s mighty hand”, I really needed to stop and take the time to consider what that requires. It’s easy for me to say I want to be humble to God but it can’t be something I show with words but rather by my actions. It requires pliability, it requires ‘letting Go and letting God’ as the phrase so cleverly describes. It means I am ready to be vulnerable to His will even though I may have my own. There are many definitions for the word “humble”. When I was considering my part in applying this scripture here is one that greatly affected me, “lowering in condition or importance; destroying the independence, power or will of.” Yikes! … Now that sounds a bit scary but this type of surrendering works out for my benefit. When I humble myself to God’s mighty hand I am trusting in His Authority, I am proving that I believe He’d never harm me, and I am appreciating how much he takes care of things for me. Exposing my “under belly” which is my Soul into God’s hands means that I will not give way to fear and that I am letting Him lead me. When I do this, as any loving Master would, He takes hold of me.

Praise Him.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

How Precious Is Unity

How Precious Is Unity
Philippians 4:1-10 reads:
1Therefore, my brothers, you whom I love and long for, my joy and crown, that is how you should stand firm in the Lord, dear friends! 2I I plead with Euodia and I plead with Syntyche to agree with each other in the Lord. 3Yes, and I ask you, loyal yokefellow, help these women who have contended at my side in the cause of the gospel, along with Clement and the rest of my fellow workers, those names are in the book of life.4Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.8Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

Unity it so important in all the things we do in Christ, especially because we operate as a team when we profess to be believers. Sometimes our personal opinions or perceptions can cloud our judgment when it comes to guarding the Unity of the body and this is just what the Devil prefers, our separation from one another. Therefore we have to be diligent, the phrase “Agree to disagree” does not apply when it comes to the word of God and it doesn’t promote unity when it comes to our opinions either. If anything it just encourages us to fixate on the idea that, “I’m right and He’s wrong …so let’s all leave it alone,” this in turn creates more division. A better way to look at things is, “Let’s not let our differences drive us apart or affect all that we are working towards. Let’s work towards remaining in agreement so we can concentrate on what God wants.”

People are going to come from all walks of life when we make Jesus our Savior so it’s to be expected that we might not all share the same experiences or personal preferences. However, when it comes to Unity, it’s our common ground we should be protecting, not that which pours out from our own hearts. We need to work extra hard to avoid pleasing our flesh and to remember our work in the Lord is too important to emphasis our own ideals.

In Philippians 4 we see that Paul cautioned against this mindset. He felt so strongly about this that he publicly encouraged Euodia and Syntche to agree. It appears these Women were having some sort of disagreement. Since they were such important workers in the Lord's kingdom a division could have easily brought about public discord and begin to affect others. This would have resulted in an overshadowing of the fact that Paul himself said they had contented by his side for the Gospel. Whatever the case Paul pleaded with them to maintain unity, he encouraged the ladies and others in the region to join in this effort. We must always keep in mind family we are better than petty arguments. This is just what the Devil would like for us, for us to lose sight of the goal. That is why we must all live and work together carefully.

The Devil would rather us be so distracted with the minor things in life and or not remain in harmony when it comes to the Word so much, that we throw in the towel on God’s work and in on God’s family. That is why we are reminded in this same passage of how we should be interacting. We should be gentle with one another, we should be praying, we should be coming to God with things and we should be thinking positive with Christ as the center. That’s what’s going to keep us on track and that is what is going to keep us unified. Let’s block the Devil’s efforts by remaining unified so that we might jointly bring God the glory.

Go team Christ!

Monday, September 21, 2009

The Awe of His Power

I awoke couldn't lift my head...there it was again... it pulled at the back of my eyes locking them to the bed like a magnet. The parts that explode inside my head seem to make it triple in size and my neck could no longer support the weight of it all. That sounded the alarm for something to signal a rush of nausea to begin flowing throughout my stomach. It climbed the scale of my entire belly like an ocean that begins peaking during a storm.

I tried bracing myself but the tidal wave impacted all of my body’s defenses, hitting first the skull, then the neck, then the eyes, back down into my stomach until I could only stumble to and fro. What's this now? I can't even speak about what I’m feeling, my brain knows the words that it wants to form, but it doesn't seem to remember the alphabet right now let alone recall the ability to push forth my tongue into an articulation. That would be too much so I mumble letting out groans and moans hoping I am letting someone near by know that it’s happening again, yet that I’m still holding on to the fight I have inside.

Hey "Where'd my left eye go!!!??? I know it was there a minute ago” I begin stroking at it fumbling around my eye socket searching for it just the same as someone might search for something they’ve misplaced on their bedroom nightstand in the dark. The vision from it cutting in and out twirling all around as if I’m one of those silly cartoons characters seeing stars appear after being hit over the head with something heavy. Although this hit lacks the humor and it will take slightly longer to recover from it. ….

I am surrounded by help but I can't even notice anyone else that’s around. I know they mean well, however I can’t help interpreting the sheer sound of their external voices as a dagger to my skull. It’s making cringe only to fall over in exhaustion . I continue trying to concentrate trying to focus so that the sound won’t pierce through the now super sensitive drums of my ears. They’re already too preoccupied with the throbbing sound that resonates from within as they seem to follows my heart’s rhythm. Yet there is one voice that I am able to tolerate in the midst of it all. The beautiful voice of the Holy Spirit creating a barrier for me in the thick of the pain. Ssomehow through it all I am reminded from His intervention that this physical attack can't steal the internal joy that I have. No, no, no… the pain hasn't driven me crazed…I don’t literally hear Him speaking, but just knowing that he does speak to My Father on my behalf brings me comfort through this horrific trial. He is a gift God’s dear son Jesus sent to be with me as I live in this flesh.

That's when I feel the warmth of God’s love. The Father's caress through my tears helping me hang on just long enough to realize I've made it through the war. There may be another battle coming and another attack being pursued against my flesh, but I don't fear and I’m truly happy, at peace even. I've been guaranteed a victory that has the greatest reward of all, and so I lift my eyes to the Heavens and marvel at His love. Nothing this flesh offers will stop me from praising His name. Thank you Daddy for you always present Love.

Isaiah 40: 26 Lift your eyes and look to the heavens:
Who created all these?
He who brings out the starry host one by one,
and calls them each by name.
Because of his great power and mighty strength,
not one of them is missing.

27 Why do you say, O Jacob,
and complain, O Israel,
"My way is hidden from the LORD;
my cause is disregarded by my God"?

28 Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.

29 He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.

30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

Friday, July 31, 2009

Friendship

Today is July 31,2009 4:26 p.m., my hope is I always remember this moment...

Friendship is co-operative and supportive behavior between two or more people. In this sense, the term connotes a relationship which involves mutual knowledge, esteem, and affection and respect along with a degree of rendering service to friends in times of need or crisis. Friends will welcome each other's company and exhibit loyalty towards each other, often to the point of altruism. Their tastes will usually be similar and may converge, and they will share enjoyable activities. They will also engage in mutually helping behavior, such as exchange of advice and the sharing of hardship. A friend is someone who may often demonstrate reciprocating and reflective behaviors. Yet for many, friendship is nothing more than the trust that someone or something will not harm them.

Value that is found in friendships is often the result of a friend demonstrating the following on a consistent basis:

the tendency to desire what is best for the other,
sympathy and empathy,
honesty, perhaps in situations where it may be difficult for others to speak the truth, especially in terms of pointing out the perceived faults of one's counterpart,
mutual understanding.

(*The above copyrighted material was taken from wipkedia.org when researching the word friendship. I have no claim on this material. The soul purpose of reproducing it here is for informative purposes only.)

My thoughts:
Many of us are so busy looking for friendship in all the wrong places that we fail to realize the true meaning of friendship is love. The Lord allowed us to have friendship to strengthen us. Often times we fail at it because we fail to remember that we ourselves need to be consistent, we are ourselves need to be reliable and we ourselves need to reciprocate. Then and only then will we partake in the joy of friendship, the peace that it brings in the storms the symbol it stands for as a reflection of God's love. I have to say I am so blessed to have experienced real relationships. Ones that have spurred me, have lifted me high. I’d like to take this moment to honor those individuals and be grateful I have them, because not everyone is even fortunate enough to know something so awesome. I hope to look back on this blog entry and be thankful, be appreciative and be satisfied with what we have. Especially on the days where the physical pain is trying to convince me I am isolated and a lone. Not only do I have amazing friends that stand by me when times are good but more importantly they don't mind walking in my rain, they welcome being by my side during my storm, and I must say the same concerning theirs. And so for that I am very thankful. Thank you Lord.

1.Proverbs 17:17 A friend loves at all times....
1 Samuel 18:3 And Jonathan made a covenant with David because he loved him as himself
1 John 4:7 Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God.
I never saw a wild thing sorry for itself....A small bird will drop frozen dead from a bough without ever having felt sorry for itself. -David Herbert Lawrence