There is a Hope in Jesus

So much going on... too much to share in the limited time I have before waiting for the office to open so I can make the next call to the doctor, but to those that have been following our journey I'd like to add a brief share. A few months ago I was told several things were going on and wrong with my back. Most of it manageable, but at the time it was creating trouble with my walking and created numbness in the hands and feet. I had developed two cyst, one in the neck and one in the lower spine as well as several bone spurs thru out the disc. I needed intense physical therapy that ended prematurely because my body couldn't handle the shifting that came with some of the techniques. (PT's advice, not whatI wanted as it was finally starting to help some of the pain). I started to get sad again and needed extra doses of God's good word. I thought that it was going to be way too much to digest after the various things I had moved past the last 2 1/2 years (only by God's good strength), when suddenly none of it even mattered anymore. Within weeks of that diagnosis, my daughter was diagnosed with a really bad S curve do to scoliosis of her spine. Quickly and swiftly we were being told she should under go surgical intervention for this condition. We went for the second opinion consult at a very well known Hospital in the city and they confirmed we should move forward. This was such a devastating blow to myself and Hubby as she is very tiny. It will require major surgery. After tons of prayer and lots of support from family and church family we made the decision to move forward. The best part has been watching my daughter's faith grow. After the crying and the initial shock from all of it, she told me, "Mommy it's going to be okay. God had put this in my life for a reason and I know it's also to help me stay close to Him." I couldn't believe the little voice with such power that was talking to me, but she has been a pillar since. And trying to use the opportunity to share God with everyone she meets through the multiple Dr. visits and various testing. I am learning a lot through god using my own child. However, some days are hard especially because she has some other health issues that take a toll on her little body. Watching her deal with all of this has been one of the most challenging things I've endured as a parent. I myself have been chronically ill in some form or another for the last 13 years and God has always kept me joyful, but nothing prepared my mine for this. I love her so much. I am asking God to help me remember He not only created her, He also loves her more than my heart can house. If you too are sad or overwhelmed, please know and trust God is always working. Please know your are not alone. He loves us so much and merely wants us to turn towards Him during these difficult times. Sometimes things are stacked soooo high. If you focus on the fact that they are swaying as they are rising and not on the Wisdom of the one who strategically placed them on top of each other then you loose sight of trusting that none of it it will fall over. God's been engineering along time. He doesn't need my understanding of His skill... just my submission to it. We know He is working; God is able! Psalm 107:26-28, 30-31 NIV ...; in their peril their courage melted away:. They reeled and staggered like drunkards; they were at their wits’ end. Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble, and he brought them out of their distress. They were glad when it grew calm, and he guided them to their desired haven. Let them give thanks to the Lord for his unfailing love and his wonderful deeds for mankind.

Hope

One thing the World's darkness can never snuff out is the light of Hope that lives inside my Soul as I await for the redemption of my Soul....& that's not because there hasn't been several attempts to do that, but rather because it is not dependent on that which surrounds my life force, but instead on Him (Christ) who provides it from deep within me..."Hope= the act of looking FORWARD to something with DESIRE and REASONABLE CONFIDENCE"...Romans 8:24-25 (NIV) For IN THIS hope we were saved. Now hope that is seen is not hope. For who hopes for what he sees? 25 BUT if we HOPE for what we do not see, we WAIT for it with Patience.....no matter what the trial is shouting at you...rest assured knowing that In Christ we can have full completion and one day these fleeting things will pass! Love and Peace friends.

All that He Gave...

"Yet it was our weaknesses He carried; it was our sorrows that weighed Him down....He was pierced for our rebellion, crushed for our sins. He was beaten so we could be whole. He was whipped so we could be healed. All of us, like sheep, have gone astray....No one cared that He died without descendants, that His life was cut short in midstream. But He was struck down....When He sees all that is accomplished by His anguish, He will be satisfied.....And because of His experience, my righteous servant will make it possible for many to be counted righteous, for He will bear all their sins. I will give Him the honors of a victorious soldier, because He exposed himself to death." Isaiah 53:4-12 NLT...& this is why I Love Him so :-) ♥...Hope everyone Has a wonderful Weekend Celebrating The Resurrection of Christ, without Him I personally could endure nothing!

God Can and He WILL...

Metaphorically & literally..I've felt the sting of when you’re knocked to your knees on a course surface & your trying to muster up the strength to rise back up thru the burn from having wounded them only to be knocked back down on to them again. You have two choices at that point, either get back up or stay down. I might have taken a few too many minutes to shake of the sting & pull up off that first downed knee, here and there, but they both ready to be used. Ready to rise up, and keep it moving..God equips us regardless of the equipment, if we let Him! Phil. 4:13-20 For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength… And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus. Now all glory to God our Father forever and ever! Amen.

This School Year in Review

What a difference a year makes. I can't believe it's already April. Very thankful my youngest was brought home.(Disclaimer: I believe every kids is different & that public education offers many wonderful Educators)...However for my family, this year offered so much for my once shy, isolated baby,who was often the subject of bullying. Though she still feels comfortable playing by herself...she's learned to feel free anytime of day to resort to prayer thru any trial big or small, made great friendships, learned her talents, excelled in her weaker subjects, fallen in love with reading, and participated in an awesome cooperative learning group with some beautiful children. What a gifted time this year was, thanking God for how much she's grown. :) “Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10

Wow, it's been six months since my hole closure and I can't believe I just hadn't had a chance to update. I am praising God my heart responded very well to closure and is healing quite nicely with the patch in place. Thankfully, I have not experienced any further TIA or speech issues, however, surgery did not cure my migraines as so many people eluded to. I still suffer from the disease of migraine, in fact right after surgery they thought I was having another TIA when they began to realize after running several test I am having a new symptom with my migraines that involved the eyes. I tried to explain that as it was nothing like the experiences when the two Hypertensive crisis lead to TIA symptoms. They mistakenly thought my many visual disturbances right after surgery was a possible blood clot. That has seemed to pass, however, I will occasionally have some dizziness when having the head pain. All in all, I do not regret the decision I made to have the procedure done. It was never intended to cure my head issues, but rather guard my heart and brain against my BP issues. So I am thankful. I have also been making a lot of changes in my life choices, since wrapping up the Holidays. I love to cook and I love to entertain, but everything in moderation. I found myself slipping out of my preventative habits and my BP slowly creeping back towards crisis standards and so now I am back to my life savers...with my truest life saver, God, helping me of course. The last several week, I've been exercising 5 days a week, at least a half hour , day or night, whenever the chronic pain allows...sometimes even when it doesn't want to allow. I try to fight thru it, because I am the only me I have and this me wants to be here for my precious Jules.It seems small, but adjusting my eating is never that hard, yet it's never enough. Unfortunately, genetics are working against me and so I have to do all I can to stay well. Anyhoo, enough about me. I hope you are each well, and if you are not please know there is a Hope and a love that quenches all pain. God truly loves us. I may not know you, but I pray as you read this you may know you are not a lone. My life's not perfect, but it's blessed. Envisioning Heaven and my Life there often helps me Keep my head up when many people wonder why it's not down. I wrote this song & hope it encourages some of you: 'Heaven's Gate' by:Natasha Jules I sang at the Feet of the King He told me, "My child I love you!" I started to understand all of the things that I been thru. Like every time I laughed, His Spirit was teaching me Joy. And every time I cried I was empowered to Fight the ploy. ...Nothing the world could have offered could ever replace this day. I looked all around for Jesus, He's the reason I'm able to stay. I went to throw my arms around Him, I asked Him was that okay. He said, "Tasha don't be silly, I've been holding you Every day." Then I dropped to my Knees towards my Father again , I thanked Him for all that He gave. I told Him my heart felt such Love here, From all of His power displayed. I never EVER could have imagined, All of that would be worth all of THIS. I'm happy He helped me to Hold on and now I am in truest bliss.

God is So Near

The best part of waking up is having Jesus FILL my cup!...13 Jesus answered her, “Everyone who drinks this water will become thirsty again. 14 But those who drink the water that I will give them will never become thirsty again. In fact, the water I will give them will become in them a spring that gushes up to eternal life.”15 The woman told Jesus, “Sir, give me this water! Then I won’t get thirsty ..." John 4:13-15..Mornin...Wow, there is so much going on Post surgery, I hope when I have more time , if the Lord wills it, I can get a chance to share that part of my journey with you. BUT for now more importantly I'd like to post God's word as encouragement. This particular scripture I took from the GWT translation and I thoroughly feel God when He is speaking to me thru it. Stay strong friends, remember God is able!... Psalm 34 GOD’S WORD Translation (GW) [a]By David when he pretended to be insane in the presence of Abimelech; Abimelech threw him out, so David left. 34 I will thank the Lord at all times. My mouth will always praise him. 2 My soul will boast about the Lord. Those who are oppressed will hear it and rejoice. 3 Praise the Lord’s greatness with me. Let us highly honor his name together. 4 I went to the Lord for help. He answered me and rescued me from all my fears. 5 All who look to him will be radiant.[b] Their faces will never be covered with shame. 6 Here is a poor man who called out. The Lord heard him and saved him from all his troubles. 7 The Messenger of the Lord camps around those who fear him, and he rescues them. 8 Taste and see that the Lord is good. Blessed is the person who takes refuge in him. 9 Fear the Lord, you holy people who belong to him. Those who fear him are never in need. 10 Young lions go hungry and may starve, but those who seek the Lord’s help have all the good things they need. 11 Come, children, listen to me. I will teach you the fear of the Lord. 12 Which of you wants a full life? Who would like to live long enough to enjoy good things? 13 Keep your tongue from saying evil things and your lips from speaking deceitful things. 14 Turn away from evil, and do good. Seek peace, and pursue it! 15 The Lord’s eyes are on righteous people. His ears hear their cry for help. 16 The Lord confronts those who do evil in order to wipe out all memory of them from the earth. 17 Righteous people cry out. The Lord hears and rescues them from all their troubles. 18 The Lord is near to those whose hearts are humble. He saves those whose spirits are crushed. 19 The righteous person has many troubles, but the Lord rescues him from all of them. 20 The Lord guards all of his bones. Not one of them is broken. 21 Evil will kill wicked people, and those who hate righteous people will be condemned. 22 The Lord protects the souls of his servants. All who take refuge in him will never be condemned.