Wow.
It’s been so long. Before I get into the new things I'm exploring concering my health; can I just side track for a moment and mention HS. I am so excited about this school year. What a wonderful time I’m having with my girls. We have gone ahead and introduced a new teaching aid to our daily activities, but for the most part I am still handling the majority of instruction myself. It seems much calmer for us this year. Calm and easy are two different words. There are still many steps a long the way, but I am feeling a lot more confidant in my decision to continue home education despite my health problems. I have a wonderful support system and I've recieved so much good advice about how to serve them unconventionally when the world teaches you to think success is found by conventional methods alone. We’ll see how things are in a month or two, when we start pulling out our hair. (smile.)
Jokes aside, I am really journaling today about hope. It’s something no one else can ever take from you as long as it’s based on God’s promises. I am so excited because I am researching a new procedure for migraine sufferers. It might involve multiple surgeries but any one who knows me knows the fact that I am even willing to consider this means a new day has come. I have to say 8 years is a long time to go without many options outside of medications and dark rooms. So this seems promising. I’ve been in deep prayer about it and I really feel God is making clear what active roll I need to play in finding out if I’m a candidate. There are a couple of down sides to this, the Hospital is in another state, there is clearly a waiting list as there are only a handful of Doctors performing this procedure at this time, and not to mention it might not be covered through insurance but I have to try. I also have to allow God to give me the strength to be a part of the process when there are so many other things going on. This could take weeks, months, or even years to work out but I trust Daddy God in the decisions he makes for my life so I’ll wait.
First step is asking my Neuro if she has any knowledge of this new technique and respecting all her answers in regard to it. Sometimes like a child with candy you don’t want anyone taking your options away, but she has been a huge support to my healing. I am going to hold on to that when she speaks. I have a follow up with her for a neck MRI so we’ll see what she says. Ironically the procedure involves the neck and she and I are exploring the neck at the moment anyway so I’m excited. Good or bad, my joy is not in this world and my hope remains in Him.
Psalm 13:4-6 my enemy will say, "I have overcome him,” and my foes will rejoice when I fall. But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the LORD, for he has been good to me.
