There is a Hope in Jesus

So much going on... too much to share in the limited time I have before waiting for the office to open so I can make the next call to the doctor, but to those that have been following our journey I'd like to add a brief share. A few months ago I was told several things were going on and wrong with my back. Most of it manageable, but at the time it was creating trouble with my walking and created numbness in the hands and feet. I had developed two cyst, one in the neck and one in the lower spine as well as several bone spurs thru out the disc. I needed intense physical therapy that ended prematurely because my body couldn't handle the shifting that came with some of the techniques. (PT's advice, not whatI wanted as it was finally starting to help some of the pain). I started to get sad again and needed extra doses of God's good word. I thought that it was going to be way too much to digest after the various things I had moved past the last 2 1/2 years (only by God's good strength), when suddenly none of it even mattered anymore. Within weeks of that diagnosis, my daughter was diagnosed with a really bad S curve do to scoliosis of her spine. Quickly and swiftly we were being told she should under go surgical intervention for this condition. We went for the second opinion consult at a very well known Hospital in the city and they confirmed we should move forward. This was such a devastating blow to myself and Hubby as she is very tiny. It will require major surgery. After tons of prayer and lots of support from family and church family we made the decision to move forward. The best part has been watching my daughter's faith grow. After the crying and the initial shock from all of it, she told me, "Mommy it's going to be okay. God had put this in my life for a reason and I know it's also to help me stay close to Him." I couldn't believe the little voice with such power that was talking to me, but she has been a pillar since. And trying to use the opportunity to share God with everyone she meets through the multiple Dr. visits and various testing. I am learning a lot through god using my own child. However, some days are hard especially because she has some other health issues that take a toll on her little body. Watching her deal with all of this has been one of the most challenging things I've endured as a parent. I myself have been chronically ill in some form or another for the last 13 years and God has always kept me joyful, but nothing prepared my mine for this. I love her so much. I am asking God to help me remember He not only created her, He also loves her more than my heart can house. If you too are sad or overwhelmed, please know and trust God is always working. Please know your are not alone. He loves us so much and merely wants us to turn towards Him during these difficult times. Sometimes things are stacked soooo high. If you focus on the fact that they are swaying as they are rising and not on the Wisdom of the one who strategically placed them on top of each other then you loose sight of trusting that none of it it will fall over. God's been engineering along time. He doesn't need my understanding of His skill... just my submission to it. We know He is working; God is able! Psalm 107:26-28, 30-31 NIV ...; in their peril their courage melted away:. They reeled and staggered like drunkards; they were at their wits’ end. Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble, and he brought them out of their distress. They were glad when it grew calm, and he guided them to their desired haven. Let them give thanks to the Lord for his unfailing love and his wonderful deeds for mankind.