Today was long, very, very long, but you know it’s not even a blink compared to my future time sitting at the Father’s feet. Gotta keep perspective....
Okay so here is where we’re at right now; this last two weeks we got some promising news concerning my newest meds. They seem to be helping multiple ailments and my BP is finally stable for the first time in three long months. Unfortunately, I need to add an additional med for something else and so I am praying along with that won’t come additional side effects. I am going to stay hopeful. In the end I have to do what is helpful to our family as a whole.
Praise God my speech has really been improving, although it hasn’t been clear to the Neuro yet whether it is migraine related or something else, she is working so very diligently with me. I am so thankful for her. She is one of my few consistent Doctors in my treatment that listens to me the person, not me “one of many” patients she sees. That is rare. And I worship with a wonderful group of people that have really been handing this over for me to the Lord. I truly can see the difference in my memory and speech issues. I am not transposing words as much anymore and I am not having as much memory or vision problems as I have been the last couple of weeks. …So I’m encouraged.
However, of course you know that does not mean there’s not plenty going on right? Smile. Right as I finally start accepting that it is the Lord's wheel for me to be home for a while and started absorbing the fact that I am going to try to home school again, my ex-boss lets me know I always have a place at her school if I want to come back. Then the following day I get a phone call for another interview at a School closer to my home one I had been praying about for months before I got very ill. Ugh!! Though my mind should have seen these options as blessings I immediately felt shame, and disappointment that I can't physically do that in this hour. But my loving Husband reminded me all will work itself out thru God's mighty hands, let me share....
My best friend gave me the most wonderful advice today when I was anxiously trying to wake Jesus during the storm…He said, “Let it be, if this is a blessing from God and this timing won’t allow for you to reach out and grab it right now, just let it be. If it is truly from God it will be there when it is meant to be picked up by you; God is control.” ...I love falling in Love with my husband! :-)
