Because He lives...

After 2 TIA's & 2 hypertensive crisises during this last 17 months, I finally under went a PFO closure of the heart this past Monday. Feeling stronger each day. I thank the God of all comfort for carrying me thru these trials. I'd also wanted to give a quick shout thanking loved ones for the tremendous support and prayers. It's been felt. My family saw a rainbow after yesterday's storm, a true reflection of the blessings we feel God has bestowed on us. Our Joy and hope no matter the Life event is in Him. Love to all. John14:19...Because I live, you also will live.

In His Hands

SO here I am almost two years after my PFO diagnosis, TIA, and two hypertensive crisises...finally ready to move away from aspirin therapy as a treatment and onto Hole Closure. I literally ran away from this,but what I didn't realize was that I was running away from a peaceful trust in My Father...who is the Great Physician. I wasn't in fear of Death...well, we all get anxious at the thought of it, but what I mean is Chronic pain can leave you longing for that Mansion Christ promises built for you by the Wonderful Mansion Builder and so I thought about it from time to time.....HOwever those Precious Jules of mine would just leave me tugging at my heart string...I started to have such an unhealthy anxiety stir inside me that I shut down and ran full speed away from the thought of doing anything that might take me from them. I couldn't imagine them dealing with anything going wrong from it, or not being able to comfort my little one even though it is a pretty straight forward procedure. What I was forgetting is my little ones Know the Greatest comforter of all and this is training grown for them learning their own trust in Him. So today I went for my pre surgical prods and pokes and if it is Lord will I will be going in to close the hole Monday...I think my biggest fear is that I wouldn't, like so many others I know with this condition, receive the side benefit of gaining relief from the last 12 years of suffering with debilitating migraines as the add bonus. And I felt like I'd be too sad to go thru all of this and they weren't gone away with all the problems too. However, what I am realizing now is whether that too is part of God's plan for me or not...everything that I endure is Fueled by His power and nothing I suffer thru is in vain. I love my Father in Heaven I pray I can put on my brave girl cap now and hold His hand thru each step....Understanding or lack there of can lead to way too much thinking..way to much reaching for and tugging at that which we cannot control...The God of Heaven touched me today with His peace like only He can.... so thankful it rises up above and beyond my mental limitations, thwarting my human understanding, Guarding me from all things....even when that includes my emotions or the anxiety of my mind. God is able... Philipians 4:Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. 8Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.