I'd like to share one of my poems I wrote a while back. In light of me coming to a point in my walk in Christ where I am truly understanding the deeper meaning of these poetic lines, I was able to reflect on it again. Perhaps you can too. Before I do that I'd like to give a little background about my nature. I am the type of person who even if you are treating me poorly, if you ask me to walk a mile with you I will ask you if you'd like me to carry you on my back for most of the way. I am deeply loyal, but I am recognizing more and more that doesn't mean I have to be a doormat for others. Don't get me wrong I will always pray I may be useful to My Lord through any and every form of humility that he allows me to experience while in flesh however, that doesn't mean I have to let your negativity change my joy. I don't have to allow someone else's journey bring down mine. Sometimes people are going to try to crowd out God's light. They might be full of anger, rage, darkness, negativity, frustration and bitterness in their hearts. And so you have to decide at some point if they aren't letting me help, if they don't want my help, if they think they'd do better without my help to just leave them be. Not stop loving them, not stop praying for them, but accept that they have to give it to God just the same way you do. Without God I'd be a wreck and so I wont apologize to anyone for seeing the optimism in blindly trusting Him along the way...
I Won't Apologize for my Joy by:Given Precious Jules
I won't apologize for my sunshine if it somehow bothers you.
Make excuse for my joy, For He rises above the blue.
The way His love for me burns so bright that His lightOver powers the pain
...So strong and filled with hope that it blocks out all the rain.
His joy is blinding, REMINDING (me)...Of all He has to give
and I praise Him for the day He gave me light to live.
Why would I stay sad? Why would I get mad? Why would I behave as if the SON doesn't shine?
If that is what you need to do then go ahead, but let me rejoice in mine.
You might look at me and think, "Why is she so Happy with so much going wrong???
It's because He shines on me, giving my heart it's joyful song.
I won't apologize for my sunshine if it somehow bothers you.
Make excuse for my joy, For He rises above the blue.
He strengthens me more than any other source could.
He let His son die for me when nobody else ever would.
I sing to Him because He beams from deep inside.
I have peace in Him, a kind I just refuse to hide.
Times get hard, but he pushes past the dark clouds that try to creep in.
Shouting, "Hold strong my child trust in me and together we'll win!"
Taking hold of me even when my heart seems gray.
He delivers me, swooping down he saves the day.
So... I won't apologize for my sunshine if it somehow bothers you.
Make excuse for my joy, ...For He rises above the blue
"I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God for the salvation of everyone who believes: first for the Jew, then for the Gentile."- Romans 1:16
