Father Knows Best

Giving out discipline's no fun for the Lord but it’s a necessity to train his children. He does it because He loves us. He knows what’s best. No matter how difficult it may be, He’ll use what ever He must to shape and mold us. After several days of good health, I needed the reminder again that I am not in control of my life. In his perfect disciplining process He gave me that reminder when I went "down for the count' Sunday night. God bless Hubby for staying home with me on Monday. I went from one extreme of health to the other, falling flat on my face. Flat on our face is where we need to be anyway, in order to submit to the Father’s control over our lives.

Like most families in our nation, our household is under going various trials. Recently, those trials have lead my wheels to start spinning overtime. I've been allowing myself to consider several ways that I (key word “I” not God) could be useful in helping alleviate some of the pressure of these situations. Their not bad things, but many are not necessarily beneficial. "Everything is permissible but not everything is beneficial." That's been a big mistake; running ahead of God in this situation.

In reflection, I am so thankful for his mercies. For training me that I need to take it down a notch, pray, and just conform to where He is leading us. That's often difficult but it's worth it in the end. I mean think about it, would you walk up to the Captain of a ship and say, "Scoot over, I've come up with some new coordinates that will get us to the destination faster."!? Of course not, so why do it to our Captain God. (Is anyone noting my obsession with the Sea when I'm blogging/Love boat anyone?....jokes aside,) When we get out of the way and allow our plans to flow according to ”His time” then we can be at peace concerning our plans. That reminds me of the song “A different Road” … 'I’ve run ahead…I’ve gone to slow. I’ve got to be still now, wait upon His will now, this time it’s going to be His time.'

My nature is combative of that; my mind has always been too black and white. I look to assess a situation, come up with a plan of attack, and execute it. However, things shouldn't’t be made to seem so simple. Many of us would then believe the lie that we are self-reliant. Perhaps even forfeit our Spiritual inheritance; assuming this nonsense is all that life is about. Therefore, lovingly, God has used illness the past eight years to protect me from that. (Sometimes God puts my flesh down so hard… that I cannot literally catch my breath to let out sound to cry from the pain, but I thank Him for it. Call me crazy but it trains me.)

Now don’t get it twisted, like most children who ask for a different form of discipline (ex: “Can I stand in the corner instead of not playing my video games?) I’d love a new form of training but I can’t pretend this one isn’t working. It’s hard to endure at times but it's discipline, good Godly discipline and I am made a better person for it. It’s taught me so much about me & My Daddy and our very real & lasting bond. It’s also taught my husband and I how to bond. The more we undergo, the more we value each other. I appreciate his perspective. When my husband looks at the mountain of trials before us, he doesn’t try to become the solution but rather be used in the solution process, and then he waits for God to handle it. That’s what I am learning to do. Wait.
Psalm 37:5-7 Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun. Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him....